William Adolphe Bouguereau, A Knitting Girl, Joslyn Art Museum

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William Adolphe Bouguereau (French, 1825–1905),
The Knitting Girl (Tricoteuse) , 1869,
oil on canvas, 57 x 39 in
Joslyn Art Museum

Another.

It’s going to be hard to let this series go. Actually, it’s going to be hard to let go of the entire “missing piece” series. It’s challenging to articulate just what it’s meant to me. It probably seems like just a sweet little gesture to some people, but it’s actually helped me process a lot of thoughts and memories, and, thinking so much about her and every aspect of my life has been good and helpful.

Without the series, I’m often dealing with unexpected and difficult moments at moments when I’m engaged in something simple, like shopping for groceries, and I’m stopped dead in my tracks when I recall something that makes me miss her and I quickly spiral into sadness.

With the series, I’m often thinking deeper and longer about good things that help me focus on keeping her memory alive in a more meaningful way. It almost feels meditative or constructive. Maybe I’ll write a long blog post some day trying to explain that.

Basically, it’s going to be hard to let go of this process I’ve been engaged in, even though I see the end quickly approaching.

I just want to hold on as long as I can.

Beth and Townes

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I need to find the artist and title for this one.

This is Beth, and her nephew Townes, merged into a painting at the Joslyn Art Museum. Read previous posts for more information about similar images in this part of the series.

I have some from the Chicago Art Institute, but I’m not sure how many more of these I will post. The end of this series is quickly approaching.

Missing my muse

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Konstantin Egorovich Makovsky (Russian, 1839–1915),
Russian Beauty and Cat , 1865
Oil on canvas, 45¼ x 36½ in., 115.6 x 92.7 cm
Gift of Mr. and Mrs. Charles W. Martin, 1954.172

Today, May 20th, the European Galleries reopen at the Josyln Art Museum.

Back in early April, I wrote about how I used to merge people into old paintings for the Wall of Icon series. Beth was in more of the icons than anyone else.

I’ve tried to explain how I see her in everything; everywhere I go. When I see old paintings like this one, I often look for her in them. It’s silly, I know, but it’s just how it is.

With the European wing reopening at the Joslyn, I really wanted to post a few more of these.

It’s not like traveling to Europe and all the places we went on our honeymoon, but it’s still significant to me.

For a long time, she was my muse.

Maybe she still is.